I was making a reservation for Valentine’s Day for my wife and me. I was using a web service I hadn’t used in a long time, and when I went to the site, I noticed the last time I had made a reservation on the site was when I was married to my first wife. For our anniversary in 2008 we ate at Molly Woo’s on a rainy evening in April, one of those rains that is pleasant, when you smell the flowers and the new life that comes with spring. We were pregnant and talking about our child and the future in general. It was such a great evening. We didn’t know what was to come would be so painful for her and so tragic for me and so many people. When tragedy strikes, it is impossible to live life after that without the dates and times triggering painful memories. But as time goes on, hope is also renewed. People need to know that no matter what happens in my life hereafter, the memories of my ‘past life’ will always be with me. They’re have made me who I am and continue to shape my life experience. They make the sweet moments of life that much sweeter now.
The song is the basis for my cover art, which resembles a wall calendar, with the 'days' represented by photos of the four seasons.
lyrics
It was early spring
There were showers
We ate Pan Asian food I recall
Spoke of the future
Of dreams and legacies
Meanwhile her body was about to fall
And in the blink of an eye
July, August, September, October
In the blink of an eye
July, August, September, October
And these months are marked
On the calendar in my mind
Oh the numbers, the seasons
The counting of midnights and noontimes
Maybe you know a better way to account for time passing
But as for me these months come relentlessly
On the calendar in my mind
The autumn came
She was fading
The wind blew the leaves as they fell
She didn’t say much
She didn’t have to
Just said she loved me
That was all there was to tell
And in the blink of an eye
July, August, September, October
In the blink of an eye
July, August, September, October
And these months are marked
On the calendar in my mind
Oh the numbers, the seasons
The counting of midnights and noontimes
Maybe you know a better way to account for time passing
But as for me these months come relentlessly
On the calendar in my mind
(Calendar in my mind)
Now it’s winter
The ground is frozen
Skies are gray and my mood is cold
And though I feel her
Ever-present absence
And the sadness has taken its toll
In her death I’ve found new life
An awakening in my soul
Deeper colors, blooming flowers
A landscape breathtaking to behold
Where the earth comes alive
And I embrace the warmth of summer
Where the earth comes alive
And I embrace the warmth of summer
And these months are marked
On the calendar in my mind
Oh the numbers, the seasons
The counting of midnights and noontimes
Maybe you know a better way to account for time passing
But as for me these months come relentlessly
Sometimes sadly, sometimes beautifully
I take it day by day by day
On the calendar in my mind
I take it day by day
On the calendar in my mind
The calendar in my mind
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